It's not like we can force ourselves to get along...
[still, he wants to try something. for science. Shadow Milk slowly approaches Pure Vanilla, then reaches up and grips the other Cookie's cheeks in between his hands. stare]
( Before he can react, he feels hands on his face. Shadow Milk will find that heβs naturally warm to the touch, and Pure Vanilla looks on with a rather confused, curious look. His cheeks flush vaguely. He canβt really help it. Itβs rather forward of the his other half!
[he's staring! canting his head one way, then the other, like he's really thinking. of course, Shadow Milk Cookie is not going to tell Pure Vanilla Cookie what he's thinking about. yet.
a way to get stronger, faster, huh? maybe...
his fingers curl a bit, not pressing roughly, but definitely there's some pressure in his hold as he pulls Pure Vanilla's face down and leans in. and then he licks him on the corner of his mouth. he feels it, too, a tingle in his Soul Jam. a resonating even though he is experimenting.
( Tongue finds mouth, and Pure Vanilla makes a soft, surprised sound. His heart jumps in his chest, and he nearly does the very same. He feels it, too. A connection -- one that was so subtle, yet there all the same.
Is this what he thought would work? Is it truly what he wanted? That may likely be the case, given-- the way that it touches their very souls, albeit quietly.
Still, he reaches and cups his cheeks with both hands. )
Can you feel that?
Our souljams.... They're responding to one another.
[intriguing! Shadow Milk hasn't really been this close to anyone in who knows how long. but he enjoys the way his Soul Jam feels right now, even if he is annoyed.
suddenly, Pure Vanilla is holding him, and he feels his cheeks burn. his response sounds annoyed, because he is, a little, but he's also kind of excited]
( It indeed feels pleasant to feel their Souljams responding to their closeness with one another. Heβs always felt strangely drawn to the other. Could this be whyβ¦?
Still, he hesitates, looking to Shadow Milk with some concern.
Thereβs mutual excitement on his end, but heβd never push without making sure: )
[what. don't look at him like that! he doesn't know what he wants. he wants to be stronger, but he might fail if he stays holed up alone. grrr, frustrating.
so he does what he always does best. he laughs and lies through his icing]
Oh, please. I was just testing something! You were here, so I'm using you as my guinea pig!
[Shadow Milk's whole body threatens to stiffen upon contact. it's still weird, being affectionate with Pure Vanilla. but it isn't like they haven't been growing accustomed to each other. living together, on more than one occasion, Shadow Milk has fallen asleep on Pure Vanilla's shoulder, and vice versa. and, rather than shove PV away, Shadow Milk has tolerated the closeness.
probably because he likes it, or something.
it takes him a split-second to relax, which no doubt worries Pure Vanilla. but he shouldn't be nervous, because Shadow Milk isn't pulling away. keeping his eyes shut, he leans in, hands coming up to rest on Pure Vanilla's shoulders and fingers curling around the back of his neck. it feels like Shadow Milk's Soul Jam is also reacting to this kiss. it's warm, kind of frightening!]
( It isn't just Shadow Milk that enjoys it. He's enjoyed every bit of affection that the both of them have shared with one another. It warms him to his very core - his souljam resonating with the other's so easily.
Shadow Milk will find that Pure Vanilla is warm to the touch -- it's how he's always been. Fingers on cheek with shift to hair, gentle carding through soft locks. His chest is swelling, beating all-too-quickly.
Shadow Milk has pushed him away so many times now. Could... this be what brings them even more closer together? )
[d-don't get too cozy, Pure Vanilla! Shadow Milk is just doing this to level up! still, if he were only acting, the Soul Jam probably wouldn't resonate this way, right?
eventually, he draws back a bit, needing to breathe. his cheeks are red, and he can't look at Pure Vanilla directly]
...You're. Better at this than I anticipated.
[why is he surprised? is Shadow Milk imagining Pure Vanilla kissing other Cookies??]
( He's breathless, too -- but that doesn't stop him from looking to Shadow Milk with adoration. Despite it all - despite what's been done - he's fond of his other half. And his souljam -- it feels as though it's only all the more connected with him now like this.
He reaches for Shadow Milk's hand then. )
Am I? I was following your lead. Perhaps... it is because it's us that it felt easy.
as they held hands, Shadow Milk could feel his soul jam beating, almost loud enough that it was in his ears. he looked down and noticed that the both his and Pure Vanilla's soul jams were pulsing together.
after a moment of watching, Shadow Milk lifted his head again and cleared his throat]
( He agrees quietly -- and with a nickname just for him, no less.
But, he does wonder if he feels it, too. Does he feel the way that their souljams are only all the more drawn to one another? How right it feels?
Fingers intertwin with the other's then, squeezing gently before he leans forward once more. The kiss this time -- it's a little less chaste, but it's no less gentle. At the least, it's before he can protest that nickname he's given him. )
[a good idea, since Shadow Milk was quite stunned by that nicknamed. outrageous! how dare he?!
Shadow Milk's eyes shut this time as he's drawn closer, his head tilting just a bit to one side so that he can catch Pure Vanilla's lips properly. as gentle as it is, Shadow Milk cannot deny the way his Soul Jam sings in response. two halves, joined together. the intimacy he's craved.
He can feel the way that Shadow Milk's loneliness has began to fade -- even if it's just a little. A soft sound of approval leaves him when Shadow Milk kisses him properly, fingers moving to card through blue-colored hair gently.
Can he feel it, too? The way that his soul becomes warmer with this much affection?
Shadow Milk's number begins to change then -- albeit it goes unnoticed for now. )
[the warmth is almost too much to bear! it's not burning hot, but it's a lot all at once to give to someone who used to despise such a thing. it's been months since Pure Vanilla and Shadow Milk had their showdown at the Spire, and Shadow Milk had told his other half that he'd hated him.
look where they are, now...
he pulls back a bit suddenly as the memories return, huffing through his nose. the number above him looks like it's trying to change, flickering between five and six. Shadow Milk presses his hands to his head, as though he wants to claw his own eyes out]
This... warmth... In my Soul Jam...!
[tainted............. Pure Vanilla's light is seeping in]
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[still, he wants to try something. for science. Shadow Milk slowly approaches Pure Vanilla, then reaches up and grips the other Cookie's cheeks in between his hands. stare]
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What was he thinking? )
β¦ S-Shadow Milk Cookie?
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a way to get stronger, faster, huh? maybe...
his fingers curl a bit, not pressing roughly, but definitely there's some pressure in his hold as he pulls Pure Vanilla's face down and leans in. and then he licks him on the corner of his mouth. he feels it, too, a tingle in his Soul Jam. a resonating even though he is experimenting.
hnnn.]
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Is this what he thought would work? Is it truly what he wanted? That may likely be the case, given-- the way that it touches their very souls, albeit quietly.
Still, he reaches and cups his cheeks with both hands. )
Can you feel that?
Our souljams.... They're responding to one another.
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suddenly, Pure Vanilla is holding him, and he feels his cheeks burn. his response sounds annoyed, because he is, a little, but he's also kind of excited]
O-Of course I can feel it.
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Still, he hesitates, looking to Shadow Milk with some concern.
Thereβs mutual excitement on his end, but heβd never push without making sure: )
Is this truly what you want?
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so he does what he always does best. he laughs and lies through his icing]
Oh, please. I was just testing something! You were here, so I'm using you as my guinea pig!
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( Sounds a bit like a lie. Pure Vanilla remembers how he responded during the Christmas Party. )
Perhaps we can think of it as a way to continue what was started during the Christmas Party.
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[a slight hesitance, but eventually he squares his shoulders]
I... Suppose.
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If you would like to try to deepen our bond... I have an idea.
Can you close your eyes for a moment?
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so he stands up straighter and closes his eyes, exhaling through his nose]
You're not so clever, you know. I can tell what you're trying to do.
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( Does he? He can't help but laugh quietly, though there's nothing mocking in the way he does. It's a joyful sort of sound. )
I do not mind if you wish to take the lead instead.
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[Shadow Milk continues to keep his eyes closed]
You should finish what you started!
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He knows it feels right. Perhaps one of the things that has most felt right since first stepping foot within mementos.
And so, he reaches once more to cup Shadow Milk's cheek then, leaning forward to press a gentle, soft kiss to the other's lips. )
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probably because he likes it, or something.
it takes him a split-second to relax, which no doubt worries Pure Vanilla. but he shouldn't be nervous, because Shadow Milk isn't pulling away. keeping his eyes shut, he leans in, hands coming up to rest on Pure Vanilla's shoulders and fingers curling around the back of his neck. it feels like Shadow Milk's Soul Jam is also reacting to this kiss. it's warm, kind of frightening!]
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Shadow Milk will find that Pure Vanilla is warm to the touch -- it's how he's always been. Fingers on cheek with shift to hair, gentle carding through soft locks. His chest is swelling, beating all-too-quickly.
Shadow Milk has pushed him away so many times now. Could... this be what brings them even more closer together? )
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eventually, he draws back a bit, needing to breathe. his cheeks are red, and he can't look at Pure Vanilla directly]
...You're. Better at this than I anticipated.
[why is he surprised? is Shadow Milk imagining Pure Vanilla kissing other Cookies??]
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He reaches for Shadow Milk's hand then. )
Am I? I was following your lead. Perhaps... it is because it's us that it felt easy.
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as they held hands, Shadow Milk could feel his soul jam beating, almost loud enough that it was in his ears. he looked down and noticed that the both his and Pure Vanilla's soul jams were pulsing together.
after a moment of watching, Shadow Milk lifted his head again and cleared his throat]
Let's. Try. One more time.
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Of course. But... just once more?
( He could do it again -- and again if allowed to. )
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Y-yeah. Once. More. I think.
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( He agrees quietly -- and with a nickname just for him, no less.
But, he does wonder if he feels it, too. Does he feel the way that their souljams are only all the more drawn to one another? How right it feels?
Fingers intertwin with the other's then, squeezing gently before he leans forward once more. The kiss this time -- it's a little less chaste, but it's no less gentle. At the least, it's before he can protest that nickname he's given him. )
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Shadow Milk's eyes shut this time as he's drawn closer, his head tilting just a bit to one side so that he can catch Pure Vanilla's lips properly. as gentle as it is, Shadow Milk cannot deny the way his Soul Jam sings in response. two halves, joined together. the intimacy he's craved.
the loneliness feels like it's melting away]
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He can feel the way that Shadow Milk's loneliness has began to fade -- even if it's just a little. A soft sound of approval leaves him when Shadow Milk kisses him properly, fingers moving to card through blue-colored hair gently.
Can he feel it, too? The way that his soul becomes warmer with this much affection?
Shadow Milk's number begins to change then -- albeit it goes unnoticed for now. )
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look where they are, now...
he pulls back a bit suddenly as the memories return, huffing through his nose. the number above him looks like it's trying to change, flickering between five and six. Shadow Milk presses his hands to his head, as though he wants to claw his own eyes out]
This... warmth... In my Soul Jam...!
[tainted............. Pure Vanilla's light is seeping in]
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